Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Never too late to have my piece.

Blabberings 


Whats the issue of the day? I'm typing anything that comes to mind, trying to recall. What do I think of Pak Lah? Well, I think he should leave, seeing at the damage he's done so far. The damage might just be perceived but it might also be true. 
To list them down would be impossible, seeing that I lack resources presently. Just to name a few would be justifiable though. Double tracking, The crooked bridge. The fourth floor. Any unsaid animosity to his predecessor. I think that should cover some thoughts I've been having. There are more, but they're not coming out of my head at the moment.
The latest brick is the one about their outburst protesting Tun's comments regards UMNO elections. A little childish if you ask me. Coming from the likes of Ahmad Shaberi Chik the Minister of Information.As competent people would do, they should just let Tun blab out what ever he wants, where is the freedom of speech that they have been championing?

Shaberi should realise what a fool he's out of himself, taking on the master of blab, LIVE! For the whole nation to judge. He should know better that not all Malaysians have the same IQ level. That shaker only got to make Shabby the fool is enough to bring the house down.

Come to think of it, even UMNO members don't have the same level IQ. Thats why there are leaders. And there are LEADERS. And about 3 million followers. The registered ones. Them too aren't that reliable, otherwise WE would have cruised thru.

I hope we'll get a new one soon. But I think the next one too will not be long in office. Just look at the number of schools that has been relocated. BBGS comes to mind. In its place, a grand commercial complex. Weld swimming pool behind it was long gone years before, depriving the likes of me a place to cool down and exercise at the same time. 

How many fronts can one cover at one sitting? Maybe I'll be back with more later. But just an after thought, if I recall correctly, we, as in Tun and Daim did sold bonds back then. Are we covered?

Ciao. 

Sunday, October 26, 2008

analyse this

I dream too much. Maybe they are nightmares. But, no. I’m wide awake. And they are not movies in my head. They are just thoughts, inspiration or aspiration. Call it what you want. But they come, there’s no stopping them coming.
I can list them, but I’m too lazy to jot them down. I forget easily. Perhaps there are other priorities occupying my head. For instance, what to have for breakfast. Do I have enough to pay for it? How do one dream when one’s breakfast is on hold?
Back in `77, there were 5 of us, apprentices, ages 18 or 19. one of them said, “Dude, your nose says that you're a dreamer”. I remember as a 10 year old how my nose sweats. Are these signs to our character? My mom used to say, “don't be as hot as chicken dung”. A malay idiom. You know, they cool very fast. Guess I got stucked. Between dreams and priorities. Never finishing what I started. Was it a curse unconsciously served on me?
Am I trying to blame somebody? I don't need to. What I need is to make a living. Though it looks like I'm hardly trying. I just read something, written by a very young lady. A reminder. Maybe I should turn to god. But god never changes us, unless we want to. We have to show we wanted to, but at times, even with effort, life still is stucked. Determination should be the order of the day. But we still need a goal. A target, not just a will. We need to know what we want to do. Do we let others show us or do we make that decision our selves. Did they influence us? Actually, rarely do I hear encouragement from those around me. Is it because my ideas are absurd or just plain stupid?
But the reality is, I only try to get others to help me. That’s the truth. I have to do everything myself, but aren't we in a community? Yeah, but there's only so much the community can do for you. But I did try, didn't I? Continuity, perseverance. That is something I don’t have. So I’m weak, is that it?
The dream, hope, inspiration and aspiration continues.

Typically me, analyse this.

Me
I want to make a mountain gorilla. About life size, in glass. What do you think? Can it be done? I say it can. I also wanna make an F1 racer. Life size. Some of the ideas or images I wanna make are gone, but they'll come back somehow.
How am I gonna built these images? The hows is the easy part, its the when and the why its not done is the hard part. Where are the materials? The fire needed. Fire in the stomach is on tap, fire to the torch is the one not available. The materials. Not available. So when are we to realise this images? You tell me,, cause I ran out of ideas.

Me the dreamer.

I dream too much. Maybe they are nightmares. But, no. I’m wide awake. And they are not movies in my head. They are just thoughts, inspiration or aspiration. Call it what you want. But they come, there’s no stopping them coming.
I can list them, but I’m too lazy to jot them down. I forget easily. Perhaps there are other priorities occupying my head. For instance, what to have for breakfast. Do I have enough to pay for it? How do one dream when one’s breakfast is on hold?